Saturday, September 3, 2011
Smile!...Just for the camera?
Did I mention that he sought me out for some fun the other night? And oh what fun we had...
I'd seen him the week before, just to hang out and catch up. The week following consisted of flirty, dirty texts almost everyday, and I knew that I had to see him again. The few times we had hooked up in the past were amazing and full of pulsating orgasms--A first for me with a guy. And when he suddenly cut me off from the climax wagon to start things up with Barbie Girl, I certainly felt a little more than just bitter about it. It's like, I know it wasn't just me who thought the sex was incredible, so why was he not wanting or seeking it anymore?
Eh, I guess (some) guys do want more than just sex with a woman.
Anyway, despite him being with her and me semi-being with Dr. Shark, we met up for one night. Unlike with Ace though, I didn't feel guilty or regret with Rege. We began the night as friends, evolved temporarily to lovahs, and then parted the night as friends again. I honestly don't know if we'll engage in extra-curricular activities again or how I would feel about it if we do... but it's fun to think about sometimes.
This brings me back around to the question as to why is Rege dating this girl that he doesn't get everything he wants from. He loves sex with me and he likes hanging out with me--He's told me this multiple times. So why didn't he try to date me when he had the chance? Is it because I'm not blonde and blue-eyed like Barbie? Does he somehow ignorantly believe that I wouldn't fit in well with his life? Without any evidence or real direction I could only speculate... but I'm leaning towards that; and if that's the case, then maybe I shouldn't mess around with a guy like that anyway.