And in all honesty... When I turned my phone back on, I was actually hoping for a text from J(erk).
My birthday had passed a few days before and I know that he knows that. My last birthday was spent in his arms. I also know that it's been about nine months since he ripped himself away from my life, and most of this time I'd spent hating him.
But I was hoping for him to use this one day out all the days to reach out and reconcile. It's asking too much of him since I know him to be one of the most stubborn, prideful men... But if he had any ounce of kindness in him, I was hoping he could use some on me for once.
I'm so tired of hating him.